about all that God shit I wrote... yeah its all wrong. I realized that pretty much right after i wrote it all. For some reason I translated the cause-effect, conservation of energy thing to the outside-the-universe place, which was completely retarded. The universe could have just spontaneously appeared because cause doesn't necessarily stipulate effect outside the universe, seeing as newton's laws and the laws of conservation of energy probably don't apply out there. I think I probably knew this all along, even when I was writing, I just didn't want to admit that I was wrong and you can't prove God and there is no such thing as an absolute and we're all lost in a swirling abyss of confused numbers and arbitrary death and nothingness and everything.